Why?

Today I am sad. I am mad. I am confused. I normally am a very private person, when it comes to private matters, but now I am looking for advice, or other stories similiar to mine. So please be gently, pretty please! :) It's actually pretty simple. I. Cannot. Get. Pregnant. I don't know why, noone knows why. Actually let me back track a minute. I can get pregnant. But I miscarry. Also, it takes about 16 months for me to get pregnant. Both times I miscarried in the 10th week. Yes, we do have a fabulous little boy, but we despertely want to add to our little family. It does not feel complete.

Now I am not looking for sympathy, or anything like that. I understand that we just may not be in store for another baby this way or at this time. I trust that God will give us a baby when it is our time, and that is the only thing that helps. It just seems like everyone around me is getting pregnant, or trying to get pregnant. Don't get me wrong, though. I AM super happy for them, beause I know how happy they will be for me when it finally happens for us! I just need answers. That is the part that wears on me the most, I think. My husbands been checked, I've been checked, both time I miscarried, the tissues were sent for testing. Nothing. No answers. has anyone out there tried anything "natural" to help boost fertility? I am wanting to try something like that now. I already take a slew of vitamins. Ugh. I hate taking pills.

Anywways, I am just down today and needed to vent. It is just so frustrating. I really thought I was pregnant this month and then "POW", your body just ain't having it! It is such a letdown every month, after month, after month. It has been over 2 years. And yes, I know plenty of people try for longer than that, much longer. Hmmm...ok....I am done. Done. Thanks so much for listening!

Loving This!

I am loving this look! It is so simple and covers alot of looks that I enjoy! I love the crystal chandelier and the industrial feel of the lamp and chairs. I even like the chocolate brown/olivey walls! I also love how sparse it is (soooo unlike my house!). Look at how great that one blueprint looks on the easel. So easy! I think for 2010, I never to organize, organize, organize. My etsy shop has my spare bedroom overflowing with fabric and materials. Alot of it ends up all over, wherever I decide to do my cutting and such. I bought lots of baskets and other organizational tools that I just need to put to use! Come on willpower! Do your job!
CHEERS to 2010!

Oh Joy!

I love the look on his face when he opened this! Aren't kids expressions just great! I am glad he had a fun filled Chrismtas with lots of goodies and loving family!

Perfection!

How perfect is this dining room?! Iwish I could pack everything up in it and put it in mine!!

**image via flickr

Merry Christmas!!

I have been trying to slow down and enjoy the festivities beofore the grand finale! Connor and I made a (*boxed*) gingerbread house! I am not brave enough to make one from scratch! I also got some cute pics of him and Kirby wearing reindeer ears. As you can tell, Kirby is a little camera shy. I think this was take 43.

As a mother, I want to create as many special memories for my son as the years go on. He is growing up so quickly and pretty soon he will be too big to enjoy these little moments with! *tear*! :( So I think I am going to make some crafts with him this evening, he loves crafts. I still have about 25 gifts to wrap and a few last minute things to pick up, including food for Christmas brunch at out house! Whew....ok...I should go! Merry Christmas!!

Tis' The Season To Be Jolly....

Fa lalalalalallalalala........ :) Oh man, how I wish I had a clone right now. One that could stuff pillows, one that could wrap presents and one that could wash the floors. Wouldn't that be nice! I am trying not to stress about my huge to-do list. Trying. ***deep breaths* Ok....so I will try to get some pictuers up of my little guy and our "reindeer" aka- Kirby dog tonight. My computer is in the fix it place and I have to use my husbands laptop he takes back and forth to his office until mine is back! Ugh....how did I ever live without a computer? Ha! So here are some "simple", inspiring pics. All via FLICKR!

It's Pretty Simple.

Holiday decorating doesn't have to feel stressful. This year, I am going the simple route and decorating sparsely and more "naturally". I think a few wow factors are great- but take this simple branch display with a few vintage looking bulbs (found via flickr). It is so cute and so easy to make. Just go outside, take a few branches off a tree and put them in a pretty bucket, or urn and hang a few ornaments from it! You can't get much simpler than that! I did this one year, but also spray painted the branches white- it gave it a more shabby chic look to it, but you can leave them all natural. Or go more mod and spray them black..or yellow...or pink! The possibilities are endless with a can of spray paint! So are you going all out this year, or for a more "simple" look?